This is a painful subject for me to relive but I want to get it out of my system once more. I’m going to start with the backstory because it plays a huge part.
I had a cat I named Fluffy. I was 8 years old when I picked him out of a group of kittens. While the others were playing I saw another kitten on a different side of the room completely alone for some reason. I held him in my arms and knew he was the one. We grew up together and he lived up to my 24th birthday. As he got to an old age, I know he wasn’t feeling well but I wasn’t prepared for how his life would come to an end.
That day began like any other until I heard my cat cry out from my bedroom. My grandma told me something appeared to be wrong so I immediately went to check on him. I called my sister and asked her to examine him since I couldn’t. We noticed he wasn’t able to stand up on his back legs and dragged them behind him. It was extremely hard to watch him struggle and it took everything in me to hold myself together.
My aunt drove him to the vet because her husband’s brother is a veterinarian. I hoped there was something they could do to help and he would come home but we got a call saying he was paralyzed from a blood clot. It was highly unlikely he would recover due to his age and the best thing to do in that situation was put him to sleep. I didn’t want to let him go without getting to say goodbye and telling him I love him but I couldn’t let him suffer either. My family buried him by our house. My heart never felt heavier and a dark cloud hovered over me for days.
Here’s where it ties in with the lucid dream. A few weeks later I dreamt that I was in our family room and I looked out the window like I usually do. Instead of seeing the grass, trees, and the normal outside all I saw were clouds and a big blue sky. I was very confused but as soon as I turned away and saw my cat Fluffy sitting by the kitchen table looking at me, I completely forgot how unusual this all was. He was so vibrant and had a golden glow. Relief and comfort coated me like a blanket I was so happy to see him. Next thing I know, my mom is there and she looks at me concerned. She asks if I’m okay and the moment I open my mouth to say yes why, something frightening happened. It was as if my soul was being forced back in my body. That’s the only way I can think of to describe it. I woke up feeling myself gasp for air and my lungs inflating back up. I had stopped breathing at one point. It really worried me but after that, my heart felt a little lighter and the dark cloud dissipated. I was still grieving of course but it was bearable than before. I could see the light again.
If that wasn’t some sort of lucid dream, I don’t know what it was. It wasn’t like anything I have ever experienced. The one thing I do know is, lucid dreaming does have its risks. Especially when you’re spiritually sensitive and/or if you have lucid dreams often, there’s a chance something horrifying will intervene.
About a month later I was in a hallway of a house I didn’t recognize with no idea how I got there. As I’m trying to figure it out a terrifying looking woman with wild shoulder length hair wearing a dress, comes around the corner and chases me. I run into the first room I see and try to shut the door but she’s too fast and strong. I’m trapped, scared out of my mind she’s going to hurt me or worse. She comes closer, stops, and starts talking to me. I can’t remember what she was saying. Not knowing how to react, I ask her to please let me go and I finally wake up.
It was like something from the Insidious movie. The part that stood out the most in that nightmare was the music I heard the second she showed up. It sounded like the insanest nerve wrecking rock music I have heard in my life and didn’t even know was possible. Thankfully nothing like this had reoccurred since.