I’m a firm believer certain dreams/nightmares mean something and in rare cases may warn you of what to expect later in life. I vividly remember my very first nightmare from when I was only 4 years old.
It began as a dream that quickly turned sinister. I saw an isolated doll carriage. Being a small child and naturally curious, I walked up to look inside. As I got closer a hand flew out and pulled me in with such force I had no time to react. I woke up traumatized, not knowing what that was about.
Today, I believe that nightmare symbolized and predicted my future. I always felt I was weaker than everyone around me but I didn’t see my life in a wheelchair coming.
(The doll in the picture represents me as no longer mobile and the dominos represent the escalation of events in my life.)
I don’t have a single recollection of having any other nightmares prior to that one and I don’t recall having any others until exactly 3-4 years later. I was already living in the U.S. As I was growing up I had countless nightmares. Most of them were the common type that everyone has, like falling, having the walls closing in on you, and getting chased by someone. This didn’t compare.
I was not older than 6-7 years old when I had the nightmare I’ll never forget. I was sitting up in bed not sure why I was awake because I knew I had been asleep just a minute ago. I was looking around my old bedroom and a black massed figure caught my eye. I froze not believing my vision. He sat on the floor directly in front of my door. His head was bowed down and he was completely still. I tried not to move and breathe, terrified he would lift his head and look up. It felt like I sat there a long time staring at whatever it was. I remember closing my eyes in hope he would be gone when I opened them. Next thing I know it’s light out and the figure is no longer there. I ran to my mom’s room to tell her someone had been in my room. She told me it was just a bad dream and I pushed it out of my mind telling myself the same thing. I was so aware and conscious, after all these years I remember that night like it was yesterday.
As I got older I heard of the shadow people phenomenon and attempted to figure out what my childhood nightmare meant if anything. I found that if a child sees a shadow figure, it can be anything from a warning, a spirit or protector that has been around me.
It’s also possible I’m a sensitive/intuitive and I have been blocking it out. Sensitive is a catch all term for people with different levels of abilities. Intuitive is when you know things but don’t know how. I call it a spiritual antenna.
Every once in a while something comes through that can’t be explained or easily dismissed. I will share more of my experiences in the near future.
One Girl’s Unusual Life 